It all began approximately 3 1/2 years ago. Visits, phone calls, text messages and social media brought news and changes to my life.
The dynamics of my family has changed as well as friendships for one reason or another.
For most of my life I enjoyed taking photos especially of family, friends and wildlife. I have now lost interest in doing that. Feeding and watching birds as well as taking photos of them and sharing them on my blog for 15 years brought me joy, but I no longer enjoy that.
My life in general is now so changed that I feel like I am going to need to start all over. What does one do at 82 years old when so much they loved and enjoyed is no longer around?
Some days I wish I could move but I know that is not possible and where would I move to anyway that I would be happy living there. Other days I am thankful that I have a roof over my head and a home I feel safe and comfortable in. Most of my neighbors are nice and we have lived here for many years but some of them make me feel uncomfortable.
One thing I am really struggling with is trust. So much has happened that where trust was no problem with me before now has become a real issue. I am praying about that and working on being able to trust people again.
With all the negative that has come into my life I can still see positive and many blessing every day. Some days it is a struggle though to find those blessings among all the negative, but I will never stop looking wherever I need to to see them because I know they are there.
My brother and his family sent me a beautiful peace lily plant when my daughter passed away. That inspired me to once again after many years to have some house plants. I added four more plants so far and I am enjoying taking care of them.
I still feel lost though with not knowing what else to do to fill the time that I spent on past hobbies.
Getting out and about is not something I enjoy. After living a very active life before retirement I prefer and enjoy staying home most of the time now. I love blogging but right now something to blog about has not come to mind. I do hope I can once again begin thinking about something to post on my blog. Reading posts of blogs I follow I enjoy very much and want to continue doing that.
Since mid-July I have had bouts of being in the dumps. I’ve done some reading and watched movies during those times. Watching movies that brought many tears I think has helped bring me out of the dumps. I’ve done some cleaning and culling around the house, and I am feeling better.
I am thankful for my sister who chats with me on Skype what a blessing she is and I love her more than words can express. I am also thankful for all my blog friends who have encouraged and helped me not knowing it through what you post on your blog.
Hopefully now that I have posted what was on my heart it will be a beginning to my posting again. Love and hugs to all.